Okay, so im 14 and my sister is 16.
And my parents completely favor her.
she gets out of everything.
when we were little my sister used to smack me around.. at least that pasted.
anyway.. my parents spend ALL their money on her. we are like months behind on our house payment.
and my sister gets new clothes every week i get nothing. unless its before school, my birthday, or christmas.
and i do everything around the house! i cook dinner for everyone almost every night if im not at school, im at home cleaning. i mean i literally kept track and noticed i could not sit down for more then 15 minutes without being forced to get up and clean something. i clean the living room, kitchen, bathroom, laundry, dishes, dining room, and my room, and little things.
and they are always comparing me to my sister.. really it makes me feel like im worth nothing. because she is in all honors, has a perfect boyfriend, and everything about her is just so amazing. its not my fault im not in all honors. i have severe a.d.h.d and im dyslexic.
when ever my sister is upset its: "omg shes in depression we are such failiers!" then they scream at me and say that im so mean to her.
but if im sad its: "stop being such a baby, its just your hormones. your just over reacting."
and i casn’t show that im sad about this stuff.. last time i got screamed at for almost an hour and my dad told me i was "f*ck*ng screwed up in the head"
and i never do anything to my sister.
but its like she lives to toucher me.. i have to wake up before her cuz i go to school earlier then her, and she gets up and turns off my alarm clock!!! and i usually wake up at 6:15 and she wakes up at 7:00 and i have to go to school at 7:30… so she wakes me up at 7:25? she has been up for a half an hour she cant just wake me up!?!
and she always gets more care then me.. before i was out of school for two weeks with that worst stomache pains.. till i was curled up in a ball holding my stomache crying.. my parents just called me a baby. they didn’t do anything till my friend called them and said "if you dont take her to the hospital.. i will call 911 and they will!" i had appendcitse.
but my sister (just today) was crying saying she was dizzy and she couldn’t breathe. so my mom rushed her to urgent care… why didn’t you just give her a breathing treatment and meds.?
my sister thinks she so amazing cuz she has been going out with her bf for over a year.. and he is about to be 18.. and they are already thinking about getting married when she turns 18. she was telling me to stop being a baby when i was crying cuz me and my bf of over 6 months broke up.
and she actually 9quote) told me before "oh (my name), you just jealous of me cuz i have a great bf and lots of friends, and good grades" i cried after that because im so constantly compared to her. and my parents tell me to get over it.
really. i cant take it anymore.. living at my house is like living in hell.
my friends are my only family.
i dont know what to do to keep myself out of depression. i have been to 3 different counsilors. but the problem never goes away cuz neither does my sister,
how do i handle all of this.?